This is it

I wish everything was different
But i have to face reality
So, this is it
There's nothing valuable between us
Just sex, some fun moments
And sex again

I want more 
I want to love you with my whole heart
All of me.
I can't 'cause i don't want to get hurt

Ten years ago I was so hurt... When You left me...
I was depressed for two years...
I cried every night for two years
No one knows this.
I cried alone every single night
For someone i used to love.

I can't even sayI LOVE YOU anymore.
You never want to spend time with me...
Except when you want sex.

You never say MY LOVE
Except of course... When You want sex.
You never presented me to anyone as your girlfriend.
Even sex is not the same

Because There's no feeling
No passion
Just empty usual sex.

I Know that one day i´m gonna get up
and decide that i'm tired of this
emptyness

I know that I'll forget you

I have to.
There's no choice.

One day i know i'm gonna feel exactly what i felt 
When i found you last year:
Indifference.
A lack of feeling.

And that's the opposite of love.
This is it.